You Will Belong

Fomo

Fear of missing out

What are you fearing today?

That you don’t get the right friends?

Those will be given

That you won’t pass your tests?

Study and you will

That you’re lacking in faith?

The fact you’re questioning that means you’re not

That Your mind will consume you?

You’ve set aside time to pray and commit to God, it won’t

You’re more than you could imagine

You’re so much stronger than you once were

You’re greater than the lies the enemy tries to throw at you

You have purpose

You have an anointing

Your heart is spirit filled

You will survive

Often we go on these spirals that make us feel like we won't ever get our lives together again, but that's a lie. Within the past few months I’ve started college and although it should have been a thrill to start, I started off my first two weeks in a dark mindset. I had beat myself up about every little thing. If I had an assignment due I would tell myself I’m dumb and I’m not capable of doing it. If I went to chapel or church I would say it was pointless and it wasn’t like home. I would judge scenarios poorly and I placed myself in a mindset that hadn't helped my transition into college. It wasn’t until one of our chapels where I was stopped in my thoughts, and was asked where my heart was postured. I’m telling you, my heart was lost. My heart was angry, my heart was sad, and confused, and worried. It was filled with so many things other than the one thing it had to be, which is filled with Jesus. Filled with his mercy, and love, and patience, and grace. I was so concerned about the world, and about what I had to offer, and what I had to do in order to stay on track, that I lost sight of who I am doing this all for.

I had to remind myself that this life is only worth living when it's being lived alongside Jesus. I had to rid myself of this fear that I was too distracted to get close to Him again, that I was too worried to be accepted into his presence. My fear of rekindling this relationship, was out of the fear that it wouldn't be as strong as before. Yet, I blocked those fears and I reminded myself that getting back with Jesus would be worth it. I had to learn to grow insanely in love with Him again. I had to learn to mend and re-enter this friendship, and ever since, it's been worth it. I learned that I didn't and don't ever have to be scared of Christ. Instead, I should be overly joyed that someone as great as He, would want to be friends with me.

Now I’m 3 months in and I am ever so grateful for being here. I’m not fearing in missing out as much. I am not as anxious for tests as I once was. I’m completing my assignments without degrading myself. I’ve been getting in Gods word more and appreciating my chapels, I’ve found a church to attend. I’ve gained amazing friends. I’m prioritizing my health by exercising. See, the beginning was rough, at the start I wanted to go home -- I didn’t want to be here. But now, since I gave myself time to adapt, I feel like I belong.

And just as I belong, you will belong too. You’ll find your rhythm, you’ll find your friends, you’ll past those tests, and you’ll grow in your relationship with God. It just takes time, and it takes your continual strength to keep showing up.

Show up today. Show up tomorrow. And continue to. Because your days will become better, and you’ll eventually feel like you belong.

“Whatever might be ahead will not be the same. But it will be good — sweet and ripe for it’s time.” - Holley Gerth

“Now may the Lord of peace himself give you his peace at all times and in every situation. The Lord be with you all.” 2 Thessalonians 3:16

““I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid.”John 14:27

Remember be attached to Jesus. Its scary until you do it. Grow insanely in love with Him again and you’ll be the one grateful you mended and re-entered this friendship. You don’t have to be scared of Christ. In fact, you should be overly joyed you get to call him friend.